Ever met a person where they changed your life? Someone so special that brings tears to your eyes just by thinking about them, where they know everything about you and then something happens and you lose that one special person? You never think that you will find anyone just like them. You wonder how you’re going to make it through the day, fighting is your least favorite thing. Learning is all part of growing up and you just made the biggest mistake of losing the best friendship ever, and want to fix that missing puzzle piece. The trust is lost and you have to take little steps to be able to earn their trust again and then you do.

A couple years go by, and you’re back where you’re at with that special friendship. The friendship is not as close as it once was but you find a way to still communicate. Even though your thousand miles away, keeping in contact is getting harder. Months go by and you don’t hear from that friend. When they update you that they are coming to spend the summer you get all excited, but deep inside you don’t want her to come.  When the time comes and you see that special friend, something begins to seem wrong. You want to travel back through what happened in your life, but new people are coming in and going out. A few friends stay in your life and others walk out, but that still special friendship is still there. 

During the visit, they begin to tell you about their new lifestyle and how everything is so amazing. All the new friends they have made, the parties they go too and how much life is different in another place. A Part of you becomes jealous and begins to take over; some of the stuff they began to tell you upsets you. Even though you’re upset you and try your best to hide it and you can’t keep it inside of you anymore. Keeping it all bottled up inside is not an option anymore.  Telling another friend through text messaging, all about how much they have changed is hurting more than you have never imagined. But one wrong button and that person who you were talking about finds out.

You just made the biggest mistake.

You find out a few days later…No matter how hard you try and concentrate, the whole situation is still something you’re constantly thinking about. You struggle to keep a smile on your face. Life begins to get harder as the weeks and months go on, not a day goes by were you think about that special friendship that you once had. Do you ever wonder if that friend is thinking the same thing? Your mind is locked on what happened a couple days ago, and sleepless nights are making you even more tired. A couple months go by and you wondering if the person doing okay? Each person you talk too, about the friendship tries to help but no one understands. Telling yourself you’re doing better without that person. But deep inside, you know your not. Everything inside of you reaches out and wants to apologize to that friend, but something inside of you holds back and you don’t talk to them.   

Then out of know where they get in touch with you again after not talking for a couple months and say they miss you. This reminds me so much like an ex-boyfriend! Ha-ha so you’re talking again but it’s never what it once used to be, it’s almost depressing. A part of you feels like just getting that person out of your life forever, but you can’t seem to stand the pain of letting them go completely.

Months and days go

This so called friendship is still not even close to what you once had.  You’re trying the best that can you to be happy about how things are, but truthfully it hurts more that you still are talking.

Everything in Life is going bad….

Your heart continues to feel heavy

Looking at pictures of this  friend, you’re in awe how much this person has changed.  Flipping through photo albums and looking at recent updated photos just make you feel worse.  They look just so different and  so have you. Your still the same deep inside but once you have lost this best friend feeling you know its probably never coming back.

 To the point of just wanting to bawl your eyes out is what is killing you inside.  Remembering everythng you used to do together is making this  problem even worse. The favorite songs, pictures you took, how close you became, the notes and drawings you drew for each other, never ever throwing away a picture or anything from that friend. Saving them in a box for down the road. This person changed might have changed your life like me, but how do you feel? You Days go by, and  the feelings of this friend are still gone. People change and once what you had , might never be the same that they once were. 

------  STORY I WROTE FOR A CLASS.